My tummy is a little upset so I can't pick a cheese today. First person to comment on my blog today gets to choose.
I've never been a big overemotional sap. However, as time moves on, I'm getting more numb. Is that normal? I'm finding myself a little uncomfortable with it lately. Music doesn't move me like it used to...in fact I barely listen to lyrics. Births and deaths removed from my immediate family have little to no effect on me emotionally anymore. Local killings in the news don't even pique my interest much...it's just "oh, another crime."
I need a shot of emotion, passion, whatever. Of course a shot of alcohol would also be appreciated.
How is your emotional state as time goes on?
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Felines...nothing more than felines.
*leaves love notes all over blog*
I am the opposite. I feel so much more now. (not due to pregnancy...I mean when I am not also). I look at everything at how it will affect my children. It is too scary sometimes to look at it that way. I see a big bad world a lot. But then I see a whole lot of cool, neato things that I forget aboot.
Hmm. Maybe this is what happens when you don't have kids.
And, zombs, you didn't pick a cheese dish for today.
*injects Kim with some feelings*
I don't have children but I'm highly emotional. I have definitely gotten more cynical the older I got, but the emotional factor has gone up also. I get more and more sentimental the older I get.
Damn you! This post is kind of deep for a Friday, but... *puts on thinking cap*
It's not because you don't have kids. When my kids were little, I used to fret about all the sick, sad stories I would hear about. I would always be paranoid about what I would do if bad things like that happened to me, my kids, husband, even people I knew. My biggest fear was something happening to me and leaving little ones behind or me being unable to care for them.
As time goes on, I've become numb to it. I have focused more inward because, out of necessity, I can't worry about what happens to others. I have my own needs, issues, problems. I know now, even if something were to happen to me, they'd be OK. Of course, they'd be much better off with their mom around. *pats self on back*
I think there comes a point when we get so bombarded with outside stuff, that we begin to ignore it. Our experiences tell us there's not usually a whole lot we can do about it, but what we can fix, change, make a difference with is just our own little worlds. Sometimes, that's just too much to deal with and the outside stuff that doesn't effect us directly gets ignored and tossed aside becasue we CAN'T deal with it.
I'm babbling...
*pulls off thinking cap*
Phew! I need more coffee...
I'm going to post this now. It's long and I'm not even going to proofread it!
Nutz <--- living on the edge
I have always been pretty cynical. Most of the people in my 3D world have a joke that I am dead inside because I don't get all weepy all of the time like they do.
Every once in awhile I will be surprised by a burst of these kinds of emotions but it is very rare.
The things that make me cry are things that directly affect me and my heart.
Except in my dreams. I have terrifying and extremely upsetting dreams.
As a matter of fact, Michelle had to wake me up out of a sob last night. I was crying hysterically and I don't even remember what the dream was about. I guess I get it all out in my sleep.
Since Zombs didn't choose, I vote for a nice Irish Swiss!
Zombie snoozes, zombie loses. *brings out the tray of Irish Swiss*
Thanks for sharing your stories, everyone. It makes me feel a little better.
OMG! Kim, you have hit a nerve in me with this topic. I've been experiencing the same thing - where I can tell I've gone numb and things don't move me ar make me feel anything inside like they used to.
I've been coming out of it lately and have noticed the feeling coming back. It's weird because sometimes the feelings are happy and good, while other times they are sad and depressing, but either way, I'm enjoying that I *feel* something again.
So maybe this IS normal to go through these spurts.
I like Nutzy's response and it really makes sense. And, I need to expand on my response.
Like you Kim, there are bad stories on the news that I can easily turn away from without having any emotional reaction. Like Nutzy said, we are constantly bombarded with bad news on tv that we are likely to become desensitized. We have to in order to remain sane and be able to function.
There is so much horror in the world being caused by adults. Now, if the story is about innocent children and animals, then that's another thing. I can't prevent getting teary eyed about that.
It is unfortuate that music doesn't move you much anymore because that is such a great escape. Perhaps you should listen to more Celine Dion music. That'll bring out a reaction from you LOL.
*HUGS*
I pick Ceeze Whiz!
Goes real well with Celine Dion!
I also don't know if in your case it has to do with not having children now. I was just answering for me. I was pretty unemotional before so that is where I saw the change.
If life kicks you in the ass often enough you become quite hard-assed. I am a hard ass.
The ten years during which my son with autism went from age 5 to age 15 were the hardest. Emotional numbnity was a survival requirement. I'm rather better now but I can still go from normal to emotion-free in 1.3 seconds.
This is why I love Tom so much. He is the one safe harbor for me, where all my emotions can just come out into the light of day even when things were very, very dark.
Of course I cry at Celine Dion songs but that's because I am in physical pain.
LOL at your Celine point, Swami.
I can only imagine how raising your son with his autism has effected your emotions.
I certainly am much more cold than you are, Kim. You have been very compassionate with someone who I honestly have zero tolerance for.
So while you may think that you are becoming numb, your display of sympathy towards that person would say otherwise. *smooch*
I guess I just see it as pretty typical depressed behavior and yeah, if it doesn't improve soon, I'll be sick of it. However, it's only been about a week, which is usually THE hardest time after a breakup. So I think it's more patience than emotion I'm displaying. :-)
Don't sell yourself short, sweatheart<--(making a Big Brother funny).
Patience goes along with compassion and emotion. There were more than half a dozen of us who lost our patience after the second post.
Don't get me wrong, I know the pain of being dumped and I know it's hard and leads to irrational behavior. I was a stalking, psychopathic freak when I was 21 and got dumped and luckily didn't have the internet to display my behavior. My problem with him is his "with me or against me" attitude. anyone who didn't agree, was accusing him of being the devil.
Anyhow, I don't want to turn your blog into the great smooth debate. *smooch*
My point is that maybe you feel more than you think you do and there is still hope for you as a human being. :P
I frankly laugh that we are debating if I'm displaying good emotions or not. Yes you are! No I'm not! :-)
I really do understand why people reacted to his handling of it all, really I do.
So we digress....I should go have ice cream. You should, too.
May I have cake instead?
Funny you mention this...DH and I were having this conversation yesterday. I'm having a hard time lately with the emotions that I'm not having. They just aren't there anymore. Stuff that a year ago would piss me off to no end, I might get frustrated over and get over quickly these days. Things that normally would have me cussing, screaming and crying all at once (see my blog), leave me cool and level headed, for the most part. It's bizarre. I can't explain it. I guess I'm just more apathetic now.
*runs out of blog, sobbing*
*points and laughs at hyperemotional mm*
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